Worthy

I used to dream that one day I would live in Colorado.  I’d close my eyes and picture myself surrounded by all those beautiful mountains and imagine how happy I’d be venturing through all the beauty.  

For the last three years, I went back and forth picturing my life there and living my life in Michigan.  It wasn’t so much about “Michigan” because I have a lot of love for my hometown, but I knew something was missing.

Maybe it was the lack of adventure in my life or that feeling you get when you know you’re supposed to be and do more but can’t figure out exactly how to do it.  People ask me all the time “What made you decide to randomly move?” and the quick answer is always “Have you ever been to Colorado” but the long answer always starts with “It took me three years to finally do this”.

Moving to Colorado was just another step forward in my personal journey of growth, but by no means did I just wake up one day and decide to pack up my car and move. I believe fully that everything I had been working on was getting me ready to finally live my dream instead of dream my dream.

Changing your life is not easy and you definitely can’t change everything at once.  So before I was ready to go, I needed to make sure that I had a good hold on some not so good habits of mine.  I had to break what weighed me down before moving onto this next phase of my life.

Moving away felt like I was finally giving myself permission to become the person I’ve always wanted to be and even now, 6 months later, I still have to remind myself that I live here because I’m not sure I ever really believed I could do it.

There are so many dreams, goals and things we all want for ourselves, but most of the time we just don’t feel worthy enough to chase after it and that’s really what it comes down to. 

I knew in my heart that if I didn’t believe in me, I would never be able  to get what I wanted, so I made a choice. I finally decided that I could become whoever I wanted and that I was worthy of creating this new life for myself.

Once I decided that, there was no turning back. I’ve played this game before and  knew if I turned around even just for a second, I may not allow myself to do this. 

So if you’re trying to decide whether or not you can do it, remember that not only can you do it,  but the world needs you to chase after your goals so you can make this world a better place. 

Take the jump. Book the ticket. Stay fearless. 

Because yes, you’re totally worth it. 

Break the weight, 

Ricki